Rants, because I'm awesome like that.

It's true, I am pretty damn awesome. But here's the present dealio...

Love? Yeah, giving up on it. My heart belongs to someone I can't have, and I'm not even sure I actually have his in return. Though it isn't an argument I'm willing to have with him, either. I hate arguing with him. Haha, love is a very splendid thing, huh?

Which leads me to my next point: the dating world. Yeah, not touching that one. I've noticed that when I date, guys want more than I'm willing to give, and then get pissed that I'm not the 'wanting' type. For example: I'm not over-the-top cuddly. I don't even give praises often.

I've been told this makes me a bitch. Does it bother me? Absolutely not, I adore myself the way I am. (Sometimes, I think it's a little too much.) Why people expect me to change into someone nurturing and crap is beyond me.

This also makes me thing about my random Mom-mode. It isn't the whole mothering thing, as much as it is making people tremble in fear at my power. There, I said it. I'm a power-hungry bitch. Who's conceited. Or something like that.

And lazy. Very, very lazy. I think part of it is because I really, really hate driving. And people always want me to go do stuff with them. I think people get mad at it because they think I'm making excuses not to see them. Maybe that's true, on some really deep sub-conscious level. But on the surface? Yeah, it's lazy mixed with my hatred for driving.

Back to the dating world. This leads me to believe that I'm just not ready to put up with guys, and how they require coddling and whatnot. It's not me, I don't do it, I don't plan on doing it anytime soon. At least, not with the ones that are within my reach.

And before you go thinking, "Oh, she's talking about a famous person she only met once." I'm not. It's an actual person. Not to say that celebrities aren't people, but they're more like idols to us, so not as much human as we put them on pedestals, and make them gods. "Out of my reach" would refer a factor that isn't any of your business. But it's totally legit.

On that note... /endrant.