I feel like today is going to be a depressed rant. There's been a lot of stuff on my mind lately, and it makes me feel more than helpless. A lot of it probably has to do with my job situation. My job sucks, I go from getting 34 hours one week, to having 12 the next. I hate it. I've been trying to get another job on top that..
But sadly, my present job has enough power to ruin any other job I'm trying to get. And it's stupid that they can even do that, and it isn't the only job that's done this to me in the past. It's ridiculous that I do my job better than most people, and I'm still getting paid less than the high school kids who don't want to do shit. So stupid.
Another big problem, apparently, is in my love life. I'm getting pestered by my own family about not wanting to date. Why? Because I prefer staying at home and lounging around, or playing with my dog. What's so bad about that, seriously? It's not like I'm packing on the pounds, I just don't have the motivation.
Maybe I'm back in a depressed spell or something, because I've been a lot more irritable as of late. I'm snapping off at angry at the drop of the hat, and it's not pretty. Even my own mother has noted I've been more of a bitch than usual. (Which is kind of scary, because I'm usually quite a bitch to begin with.)
I'm also starting to think I have a problem. Those who know me off my blog probably know what I'm talking about, and agree with me. I swore to myself forever ago I'd never touch this point again, but I can't help it. I really don't know what else there is to do with myself. Eh, maybe I just need to get new friends. Who are willing to spend time with me. Who don't suck, like the ones I have now.
But I'll figure it out. Eventually. And I'll be happy. For all I know, this is just an uncontrolled bipolar snap.
I'll survive, I always do!
