Rants, because I'm awesome like that.

It's true, I am pretty damn awesome. But here's the present dealio...

Love? Yeah, giving up on it. My heart belongs to someone I can't have, and I'm not even sure I actually have his in return. Though it isn't an argument I'm willing to have with him, either. I hate arguing with him. Haha, love is a very splendid thing, huh?

Which leads me to my next point: the dating world. Yeah, not touching that one. I've noticed that when I date, guys want more than I'm willing to give, and then get pissed that I'm not the 'wanting' type. For example: I'm not over-the-top cuddly. I don't even give praises often.

I've been told this makes me a bitch. Does it bother me? Absolutely not, I adore myself the way I am. (Sometimes, I think it's a little too much.) Why people expect me to change into someone nurturing and crap is beyond me.

This also makes me thing about my random Mom-mode. It isn't the whole mothering thing, as much as it is making people tremble in fear at my power. There, I said it. I'm a power-hungry bitch. Who's conceited. Or something like that.

And lazy. Very, very lazy. I think part of it is because I really, really hate driving. And people always want me to go do stuff with them. I think people get mad at it because they think I'm making excuses not to see them. Maybe that's true, on some really deep sub-conscious level. But on the surface? Yeah, it's lazy mixed with my hatred for driving.

Back to the dating world. This leads me to believe that I'm just not ready to put up with guys, and how they require coddling and whatnot. It's not me, I don't do it, I don't plan on doing it anytime soon. At least, not with the ones that are within my reach.

And before you go thinking, "Oh, she's talking about a famous person she only met once." I'm not. It's an actual person. Not to say that celebrities aren't people, but they're more like idols to us, so not as much human as we put them on pedestals, and make them gods. "Out of my reach" would refer a factor that isn't any of your business. But it's totally legit.

On that note... /endrant.

Update!

So, I've finally gotten free time! It's been a crazy busy week, lol. So here's the deal:

Traded my car up! I now own a Chrysler Sebring convertible, in candy apple red. It's a '98, but runs like brand new. Seriously! I just need to fix the front brakes, and we're good to go! It's actually a really easy fix, and with some guidance, I could do it myself. (Changing the brakes is no issue, how hard could a caliper be?!)

Had a job interview! I actually got the first and second interview done today, which is a really good thing! Supposedly, I'll know by the end of the day if I'm going to have a new job. If I do get this, it looks like a shipment deal, which starts at about 4ish. Perfect for me, being the night owl that I am! Which means I'll actually be likely to be writing more, since I'm such a sleepless individual.

One of my favorite people are up in Chicago!! He's moving out this way for school next month (and I CANNOT WAIT!) so we spent some time just chilling on my couch yesterday. Much less awkward than I thought it was going to be, and I'm actually kinda psyched to hang out with him again.

And, uh, I think that's pretty much it! That I can think of. Until next time, ciao~

Into The Darkness (11.12.2008)

This is an old article I wrote for a class I took on composition. I still love this, even though it's obviously years later, haha.

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Many times I ask myself questions that I should probably be able to answer on a normal day's basis, and then wonder why I've asked myself such silly things. But it seems like the others around me have increasingly become as easily distracted. Now, I won't claim that my friends are highly intellectual, but even for the densest of my friends, this is an alarming sight. I've come to ask myself daily why this is happening. Even at work, my bosses, the most focused people I've ever met, have become distracted by the smaller things.

I've speculated, though, that the way the media is portraying our economic situation has left some of us with a fear of what may come, though in truth, we hardly know half the story of what's truly going on. Perhaps some realize this, and stress over the fact that they don't honestly know how bad things really are, yet they don't want to. I ask, is this fair? Is it right that the government hides so much from us?

In a way, it really is. Things like the stock market, for example. Many people don't understand exactly how it works, therefore they talk as little about it as they truly can. They try to keep our minds on smaller things, like murders and robberies. Not that those things aren't important, don't get me wrong, but ask yourself where many of those things stem from.

Now, I'm simply reflecting, not stating facts. This is all purely opinion. And, in my point of view, it seems that we're headed for another dark spot in history, not that we won't pull out of it. If America really didn't want a repeat of The Great Depression in the late 1920's-early 1930's, we'd really pay attention to what's going around us. Are we leading ourselves into the darkness? To be honest, I don't see much of anybody else to blame. We let the government take control of our lives, and we give them all the permissions they need to make things happen.

However, we must also take into account how much we really understand about economics and politics. These things aren't explained to us at face value. Is it really our fault that we've become to ignorant to the deeper meanings of things? On one hand it isn't, and on the other it is. Many of us wish we could, but can't afford, or lack the motivation. The solution? Look at it this way: spit in one hand, wish in the other. Which fills first? There's your answer.

Review: BlackBerry Curve 8530

Okay, so, I got this phone in April. I had the 8330, but being an idiot, I dropped it in the sink. I got my phone through Best Buy, so I have their Geek Squad protection plan. By the way, best insurance plan ever! ...If you have a BlackBerry. They don't ask questions, they just replace it. The store no longer sold the 8330, so the associate told me I was getting a free 'upgrade' to the newest version of the phone, the 8530. Some 'upgrade' this phone is!

Since they activated the phone, I've had to 'clean install' the software twice. What that means, for those of you that don't know, is that Desktop Manager creates a back-up file of all of your applications, then wipes your phone entirely. It then re-loads the software, then restores your applications. The reason I had to do this? There's a problem with my phone screen going white, and becoming unresponsive. The only way to fix this problem when it occurs is a battery pull. This was a suggestion from both RIM and BlackBerry.

Now, I have been told it is likely a problem with my phone, and to have my carrier replace it. After some research, however, I've discovered this is a major problem with not only this model, but this OS upgrade, as well. Which is kind of ridiculous, but every phone has their own flukes.

A thought on the design: for the battery, it's much easier to remove the back to do a battery pull. However, this is also a design flaw. If you drop your phone, even on the table, the back pops right off, and there goes your battery! I'd really like to see something similar to the cover on the 8330 on the next model. Especially since now that I've dropped my phone a couple of times (which everybody does, you can't deny it), the back doesn't completely snap on.

The trackpad! I have to admit, it's more convenient than the trackball, because it doesn't get stuck, or break. However, it can become extremely unresponsive at times. For awhile, I had trouble with my trackpad even wanting to click on anything, especially in the browser. In order to fix this, I had to set the sensitivity to 90/90, and now it works perfectly. It's growing on me, I almost prefer the trackpad to the trackball!

I've also heard some complaints about the keyboard on this model. It does shift a little, it's true. However, the keys are set further apart than on other models. This makes it infinitely easier for me to type on it, and I almost don't need a computer anymore! I have no complaints about the keyboard, believe it or not! I really like that about this model.

Overall, I have to give this phone a 3/5. I do wish they'd fix the bugs in the OS in the next upgrade, I'm really sick of the whitescreen problem. The cover design needs work, and is mildly annoying. But overall, I do like the colors, and the sleeker, slimmer design, compared to the older Curve models. The trackpad is a wonderful addition as well. Is it worth the hassle? Well, once I talk to a technician, I'll know for sure.

As well, I do realize that I'm posting a lot for the last couple of days. I'm trying to merge a couple of blogs into one, because it's less hassle for me this way. Bare with me!

Some Drivers!

I had this awesome photo about a month ago of this woman who parked her SUV across three spots in a parking lot. Amazing feat, but completely unnecessary. I don't know what happened to this photo, but man. It was a busy day, and the lot was almost full otherwise. I couldn't understand what possessed this woman to park the way she did. She severely upset other drivers, and I watched as others blocked her ability to pull out, just because she took up three spots!

Kind of annoying, since I then couldn't pull out when I was done sending this box out. I simply couldn't understand. Why do people feel the need for such antics when they drive? It's like they NEED to be first when going places. This is probably why I hate driving. Gah.

Set up text blogging! Hope this works haha.